Autumn Changes

Autumn Changes

Tomorrow is the first day of autumn–my favorite season.   You will forgive me if I become a little wistful.

When I was a girl I lived in a climate in which you could really see and feel autumn all around you.

There would be a nip in the air–no longer the warmth of summer, the winds would pick up and the trees.  The beautiful trees would begin to turn.   The bright and deep green leaves would turn to yellow and orange and red.

In Texas–the autumns are a little different.   But you can definitely feel when there is a change in the air.

The heat that seems to come from the earth itself subsides, not entirely, but in short waves.  The rains come and the dusk and dawn stretch out and seem to get longer.

In autumn we think of the harvest–reaping what we sowed throughout the previous months, until all is gathered and collected.

Autumn is the quiet time in the seasons. It is when mother nature slows down and folds in on itself and prepares for the long rest of winter–so that in the spring  she is rejuvenated and ready for the force of summer.

Our autumn in life comes on very much like mother nature’s.  Cooler breezes,  some rains, the changing of colors.  And the rest and quiet to continue on.

I am just entering my autumn–not fully developed and changing slightly, but looking forward to the changes, the expectations and the whole new world that is opening before me.

Like my favorite season–I am enjoying each year more than my last and am continuing to look forward to all the transformations.

Embrace the cooler weather–the relaxing days–and enjoy the autumn like never before.

Revisiting the Journey

Revisiting the Journey

9 months ago…I started this blog–as a hobby.  There were several reasons for this: 1) I love to write and would someday like to be a writer. 2) I was a new empty nester and felt that this was a good time to start something new. 3) I was searching for answers.

Let me take these reasons one at a time.  I love to write and have been writing all my life–since I was a little girl. I wrote short stories and poems.  In College, I became an English major hoping to learn how to be the next great American author, only to be told by a professor I admired that my writing was too “predictable and my characters were transparent.”  Funny the things we remember.

She was wrong, of course, but to a young naive college student it was very disappointing to hear. Luckily I also fell in love with History and graduated with a double major!

My grandmother knew of this love of writing and told me to write, –write a book, write anything–even if no one reads it–write.  And I have, throughout my life–although nothing was ever completed, submitted or published.

As a new empty nester–I felt a little lost at suddenly having to step back and let my kids live their own lives after I had been pouring my life into them for the last 20 years.  I love being a mother–it is one of my great successes in life–and my girls, my greatest accomplishments.

Without them, I’ve had to redefine how I spend my time.  And so I have been searching for answers–about myself.  I mean, my greatest accomplishments have moved out and are successfully living their lives–just as I always hoped they would.  While parenting never really ends–it does change.

So I decided to write and be published–even if by myself. I am loving it, the creation of it, the research, the process.

Some of my blog posts are really good (if I do say so myself!) and some are not–just kind of  “meh”, but I am writing and discovering many things about myself.

I think back to the beginning of this journey and the steps I promised to take.  I have given myself permission to grieve the end of my daily mothering days and I have celebrated all the things I have done right and the independence of my two girls.

The last step I promised myself–creating a plan for the rest of my life–has not exactly materialized yet.  I have taken a few unexpected side roads in the last 9 months–all necessary and all good–in helping me discover which road I would like to continue towards.

Like my writing–half the fun is seeing where it will take you.

I hope you are enjoying my posts as much as I am enjoying writing them–and that you are discovering the journey you want for your life as well!

Rain, Rain, Hurricane

Rain, Rain, Hurricane

This year’s hurricane season seems to be off to a roaring start.  Already there have been 3 tropical storms in the Atlantic 1 in the Pacific and 1 official hurricane to enter the Gulf of Mexico.

As I write this, a new hurricane is nearing the Eastern coast of the United States and there are two more gathering strength in the Atlantic Ocean and headed our way.

It is almost unreal to watch these climatic phenomenon on a radar because they seem so unreal–unless you happen to be in its path.

While we did get hit with a Hurricane last year (Harvey)–and we are watching carefully–for now all we have received is rain.  A lot of rain.

So while we watch and wait, I love the rain.  I love to hear the thunder and I love lightning in the sky.

I can watch the rain for hours and enjoy the quiet it brings to the house.

Rainy days are wonderful for curling up with a book.  They are good days to write, and sew and do crafting projects.  Rainy days are good days to spend time with family and with our doggies.

Watching the rain through the window is relaxing and a wonder of mother nature.  The trees seem to be smiling up to heaven as they drink the waters coming down.

And yet–I hope we are not in the path of another hurricane this year.  I worry and watch those areas that are in a hurricane’s path and the hope the people living in those areas will escape the dangers.

Hurricanes after all are major storm systems that bring not just the beautiful rain but high winds and destruction. Watching these storms is imperative and getting out of its way a smart precaution to take.

With those thoughts I spend the rainy days thankful that the climate is ever changing and without the need for man to interfere–only to enjoy.

Liberation Day

Liberation Day

Some of the most important things I have learned in life I learned from my parents.

I have been very fortunate to have parents that were always present, involved and encouraging .

They taught me to depend on them while I grew into my own independence.

Likewise, it was my goal, as a parent, to be present and guiding but to make sure my children could stand on their own two feet.

And like my parents, we did a good job because just like I became stubbornly independent in my 20s, so too have the girls become independent.

My dad calls it Liberation Day! It truly was liberating for all of us.

The girls now liberated were taking those first scary steps into adulthood and we, the parents, are also liberated to continue with our lives, goals and dreams outside of parenthood.

But it does not end there. My father in declaring Liberation Day shows his pride in the passing of the torch to the next generation.

So today I celebrate that we have made it to this point in time, with gratitude and high hopes for the future!

Happy Liberation Day!

Back to School Eve

Back to School Eve

Like Christmas Eve, the evening before an important day should be treated as a celebration.

So I proclaimed last evening Back to School Eve.

We celebrated by enjoying those around us, having a good meal and going to bed early in anticipation of the surprises that will come today.

Just like Christmas, today will be filled with gifts in the form of new students. Some will be presents we expected and are looking forward to.

Other gifts will be unexpected, like the home made sweater with Rudolf on it from Aunt Tilly.

But regardless, all the gifts are appreciated and welcome because they symbolize the beginning of beginnings.

So on the eve of new beginnings we should not feel tired and solemn because of the end of summer.

Remember that nothing lasts forever and all things come to an end–and that leads us always to a new start!

So remember to celebrate, dress up, share good food with good people and enjoy the presents! This time only comes once a year!

Merry Back to School Day!

Road Trip

Road Trip

I love taking road trips! There is nothing more relaxing to me than driving on U.S. highways.

Especially in a state like Texas you can drive for two days and still be in the state… but the areas are so varied that the drives are beautiful.

One of my favorite part of these drives are the cows. The ranches on both sides of the highway are home to these magnificent animals.

I love these cows and over the course of many years I have come to know them by name–hereford, santa gertrudis, angus, jersey and of course the beloved longhorn.

I love watching them go by as we speed along–at the speed limit, of course–and they go about their business grazing and ignoring the noisy vehicles.

Sometimes a whole family of cows is sitting and standing under a big oak tree–at their leisure living this southern life.

I have–more than once–pulled over to watch them and sometimes take pictures of them.

On rare occasions one will look right at me. And I have to admit that for a moment it stops my heart. It is a form of communication in that one look.

It’s as if the cow is trying to understand my species as much as I would like to understand hers.

There are times, when driving as the sun is going down, when you can see them line up and follow each other over a ridge.

In silent agreement they head home to where they will rest after a long day in the sun. It is truly amazing.

Some people have commented to me how badly they feel for the cows on these farms–that they are being raised just to be killed.

And I couldn’t disagree more. These beautiful animals are living out their purpose and they do so with grace and dignity.

So I will continue to enjoy these road trips every chance I get and to admire the beautiful cows along the way.

The Sky is The Limit

The Sky is The Limit

Part of the fun of reaching the empty nest stage of our lives is that we can take advantage of new adventures. And our bucket lists are long!

I am not as adventurous as my husband but I encourage him in his ideas and hobbies. One of his dreams was to skydive–and just a few days ago, on the 4th of July–he did just that!

It was quite exhilarating–and I did not even get on the plane!

I was very nervous while my husband was very excited.  He boarded the plane and I said my prayers.

But I have to confess that once the plane took off down the runway, my excitement also began to grow.

Twenty minutes later, as I watched the sky, a tiny dot jumped from the plane and he began his free fall.  I was stunned and excited and terrified all at the same time while MY feet were set firmly on the ground

The parachute opened and my husband floated beautifully back to earth and made a very graceful landing in a red, white and blue parachute.  He–and I–were smiling from ear to ear, that he had completed a goal on his bucket list.

And even now–a few days later–the excitement of the adventure is still with us.  What is also with us is the knowledge that for the rest of our lives the sky is the limit to what we want to do and accomplish.

It is a very good feeling to know that the only thing that holds us back is ourselves.  Luckily we are learning to let our hair down and go where the winds (literally) takes us.

This experience reminds us that, especially in this country, if we work hard there is nothing that we cannot do.

In this country–we have been able to have our home, educate ourselves and our children, become professionals and secure a comfortable and hopefully adventurous future.

In this country there is nothing a person cannot do–although I find a great deal of people wasting their time arguing and trying to change what is right, what is written, what is established and what is true.

I believe they have not created their bucket list and instead of working towards their goals and dreams they are floating about looking for what that ideal is.

You see, I truly believe that each bucket list is as different as the person who creates it. And it is best if you surround yourself with people that will encourage you in your completion of it instead of just being one in a crowd of people who all think alike.

Be original!  Be bold! And be you! We are all in the perfect time and place! The sky is the limit!

Have a great weekend!  Next week–I think we will work on those bucket lists!

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